Big Changes and New Paths

Big Changes and New Paths

Big Changes and New Paths

“And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to bloom.”

A few weeks ago, this Anaïs Nin quote made its way into my life, and I broke down in tears as soon as I read it. I knew that for too long, I had remained tight in a bud. I was playing it safe, too safe, and I knew I had to make a change. While my heart was trying to let me know what I wanted, I used logic instead and told myself to wait, that it wasn’t my time yet. Deep down, I knew that wasn’t true.

I was in a bad place, so when I got to North Carolina for my backpacking trip, I knew that I was going to have to do some soul searching on the trail. For five days, all I had to do was put one foot in front of the other, so listening to my heart became easy.

Big Changes and New Paths

By the end of the trip, I knew what I had to do. It was time for me to stop sitting at the crossroads and go after my dreams, even if it wasn’t going to be easy. Which is why, for the first September in eight years, there was no classroom for me to decorate, no lessons to prepare, no seating charts to make up, and no back to school jitters. While all my friends and former co-workers meet for the first day back at school, I’ll be off on a new adventure.

This is very bittersweet for me, as I loved teaching and the place I taught for the past seven years, but deep down, I know this is my time; everything about it feels right.

Big Changes and New Paths

That’s not to say I am not scared, terrified is the word I have been using. But, I keep thinking of Georgia O’Keeffe’s words,

“I’ve been absolutely terrified every moment of my life, and I’ve never let it keep me from doing a single thing that I wanted to do.”

I get that you have to jump off cliffs from time to time, but I have never jumped without seeing exactly where I am going to land. I have plans for my future, and I know what I’m going to do, but it is entirely up to me. There’s no contract, no set salary, no structure; it’s a risk, but it would be equally risky not to go after my dreams.

As a teacher, I always pushed my students to reach their goals and pursue their dreams. I would constantly tell them to listen to their hearts and their callings in life, no matter what anyone else had to say. What role model was I if I didn’t at least listen to my own advice?

big changes and new paths

So, I am setting out to create the life I have always wanted for myself. I know there are bound to be plenty of ups and downs throughout its creation, but I also know that if I don’t do this now, if I don’t take this leap, I will never do it.

“It’s a terrible thing, I think, in life to wait until you’re ready. I have this feeling now that actually no one is ever ready to do anything. There is almost no such thing as ready. There is only now. And you may as well do it now. Generally speaking, now is as good a time as any.”

Hugh Laurie has a point, and while there are aspects of this decision that are definitely scary, I know without a doubt that it’s the right one for me. The next few months are going to be filled many interesting adventures and stories, I can promise you that.

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Comments (17)

  1. Michelle

    I’m excited to see where your new direction takes you! I have a collection of quotes on my desk that seem fitting as well – “Three simple rules in life. 1. If you do not go after what you want, you’ll never have it. 2. If you do not ask, the answer will always be no. 3. If you do not step forward, you will always be in the same place.”

    1. The World Wanderer

      Thanks, Michelle! I am excited too! Yes, I’ve seen that before, and I love it. If you think about it, it really is true. I am hoping I can fully dedicate myself to going after what I want in life. Thanks for following along! 🙂

  2. Raul (@ilivetotravel)

    Best of luck, Erin!!!! Congratulations on this courageous step!

    1. The World Wanderer

      Thanks, Raul! I just have to keep telling myself to keep pushing forward. 🙂

  3. Julia

    I feel you! Changes are not easy but all too often we know what we want but don’t have the courage to actually go after it. It’s the right time (well, it’s never the right time so that’s what makes it right just now) and I am sure you’ll collect many wonderful new experiences!

    1. The World Wanderer

      Thanks, Julia! I couldn’t believe just how difficult making the change would be. After my first year of teaching, I moved to a new school, and that was hard, but not nearly as hard as this. Being in one place for seven years and getting used to everyone and everything, made it even more difficult. But, deep down, I know this is my time, which made the decision easier. I’m sure that each day, I’ll get more used to the idea, as well. 😉 Thanks for your kind words!

  4. Lisa

    Congratulations on making a decision. I know its so hard to leave the plotted path for the unknown. I think about doing that too but I have to plan on a change in income first. I wish you luck!

    1. The World Wanderer

      Thanks! It was definitely a tough one, especially because I really loved where I was. Sometimes I thought I could stay there forever, but I knew if I did, I’d look back at my life with some regret. The income is the scary part! Last year, I really focused on a few things and am in a somewhat comfortable spot…still makes me nervous though. Thanks so much! I hope you get to go to the unknown soon. 🙂

  5. Eileen

    Everything in its time……it’s time.

    1. The World Wanderer

      Yes, it is time! Thanks for all of your support…no matter what. 🙂

  6. Liliana

    I’m very happy for you! Life is too short to live with regrets. Are you becoming a full time traveler?

    1. The World Wanderer

      Thanks, Liliana! Right now, I’m concentrating on writing, but I have a few trips planned in the next few months. Not sure I could handle the life of a full time traveler, but I definitely want a life full of travel. 🙂

  7. Deanna

    You are an inspiration to all of us. I can’t wait to see what wonderful things lie ahead for you…

  8. Francesca (@WorkMomTravels)

    I’m so proud of you!! Now IS the time for you to jump without knowing where you’ll land – but I know you’ll land firmly and confidently. I hope your adventures take you across my path a few times 🙂 Love you!

    PS – That Hugh Laurie quote has always resonated with me, as well.

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